Vitamin C Infusion

Yesterday was sunny and warm enough that I was out in a short-sleeved shirt! It's sure been a long time coming. I also went on a three mile walk around Beaver Lake with Ed. I had to stop and rest at every bench, but it was a good achievement on a very good day.

Today has been one of doings on the phone. My dog, Trooper, has infections again. I've been soaking his feet in epsom salt water daily amongst other things, but with his toenails overgrown, he appears in need of antibiotics...again. Not gonna get into his health history, but it is sadly riddled with episode upon episode of problems. His phobia about getting his nails cut plays in...and since he is turning ten next month, it seems unlikely much will change. But, I will go get him a script of antibiotics and hope his pads are better by the time he goes to a new groomer for a pedicure Saturday morning.

I'm writing from a vitamin c infusion. I've lost count of how many I have had. I am certain they have played a positive role in my treatment, but will never be able to single it out. I see a transferable lesson...I cannot know precisely what brought cancer into my body. It would have killed me had I not discovered it via pain...and sought high quality treatment. Now I know the cancer has responded to treatment, but cannot know to what degree the components have led to that outcome. I know I have been the recipient of a great many prayers and well-wishes. I have also paid $200 for each weekly high dose vitamin c infusion. I have taken many supplements known to be helpful. And of course, I have had infusions of Chemo every three weeks. Meanwhile, I have been as positive and faithful as possible daily. There is no way to measure the percentage each component has had in the outcome. And in life, there is no way to measure roles in life and their outcomes, either.

The clouds are thickening outside. I have seen a very large bird of prey in the distance. I am about 40 minutes from being done. My next infusion, next Tuesday, is the last chemo!!! I feel ready. Thereafter I shall get vitamin c at least a month before saying goodby to a long drive to the Community General branch of Hematology Oncology. I have been devoted to myself and my treatment with the goal of living and carrying forth some of my dreams. I am thinking about such dreams now and imaging making them so. I see more joy ahead. And the gratitude I feel pools up and flows as tears from time to time.