...well...the commercial says "Calgon, take me away" and, as anyone who knows me knows, I don't ever use commercial products like Calgon. But, I use great mineral salts with pure herbal oils in my baths and I want to be taken away...far, far away...
It has been a long while since I have blogged. I find I turn to writing when feeling little control...and as a therapeutic outlet of sorts...but once I am better... at least lately, I have been catching up on chores and living. Here goes, in one run-on paragraph, from the last post 'til now: Friday evening had me out and about with my bf. We were on a mutual adoration wavelength and had a productive and memorable evening. Saturday afternoon I watched the SU/Indiana NCAA game. It's always great when the team you are rooting for wins, especially when they are the underdog. Sunday, Easter morning, started early, due to the decision to attend church. It was a multifaceted decision. Ed met me and we walked in and met ma and Joe in the front row. Immaculate Heart of Mary church has changed a whole lot since I was in there for my father's funeral, and even more since childhood. Many of the adorning statues have been moved or removed. There are various hanging devices still in their places high on the walls. It feels different without them. The sermon given by the priest was interesting. He used his own life vignette to illustrate the punch line: we experience various joys in life, but they are often tempered with disappointments. Ok. Yeah. I can see and accept that. It was not a wow-me kinda sermon, by any stretch, though. But, I had the experience of attending mass with my mother and bf on either side of me. After mass, we went out and had breakfast at a diner that was doing a lot of business. My eggs were cooked just exactly as I like them and I felt better for eating. The plan then was to go home and I had to make frosting for the cake I baked to take to my nieces house where we were to go for dinner. However, once home, there was a message and subsequent phone call during which I learned that my great nephew had fallen from an escalator the night before, had undergone surgery that morning, and although he is going to be ok, the dinner was cancelled so that my niece and her husband could be near their son in the ICU. Geez...yet another example of how quickly plans can change and the unforeseeable can impart it's impact-able elements. After a mutual decision to take a leisurely drive to Lake Ontario, the walk along the shore we desired was cut very short by me when I felt the wind chill me to my core as I simultaneously felt my resistance go down and myself rapidly tiring. We stopped at an open farmers store where I bought some chunks of great cheese cut off wheels. Once back home, tired, I put a meal into the oven and made arrangements to go get my mother to come eat with us. We stopped and I met my bf's family ever-so-briefly and next we were walking all around my ma's assisted living facility trying to find her. I felt nervous that I was pushing my luck by being there exposing myself to elderly germs and had never intended to walk all over as we found necessary. Once home, we made a salad and the food was easy to get onto plates. We shared a very delicious meal of organic pork, potato, salad and babka. Mom did not eat hardly anything and I have no idea how poorly I did at not letting it bother me. After serving the cake, Ed took her home. Today was spent on such tasks as cleaning my wig, scrubbing clean my shoes, vacuuming, organizing and picking up the pieces of my driveway that the plow blade scraped off during the winter. I also thought today of how much I want to get away.
Aside from April fooling myself, almost...well, okay, no one, I cannot see how to actually get away as I wish I could. I want to just jump in the car and drive south until I feel warmth and see sunshine. I watch another HBO movie while HBO is available for free and intend to get to bed fairly soon...and perhaps when I get up in the morning, I will take a soak and begin to plan a real getaway.
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