Sunday, July 7, 2013

...currently...

Lot's going on...my hair is growing notably on a daily basis. The very light, blondish grayish, soft fledgling down-like hair is now competing with brown hair that is coming in. My eyebrows had completely fallen out after the sixth chemo took it's toll. Completely. And I was startled each time I looked in the mirror. I tried drawing some in, one stroke as a hair at a time, but never liked how it looked. The eyebrows are really doing well now! I think that within a week they may be full length hairs; time will tell if I am too hopeful on this, as I am on many things. I often forget I am still healing from the chemo...restoring...renewing...seeking balance.

I took the time today to follow the link from my email to the Hematology Oncology website and to my lab results. The blood work had been off in many ways last time. The sixth chemo had furthered the off-balancedness, for lack of better words. Today I referenced the letters and at least had a better sense of what is still off. Several things are still off, the easiest to recall are the white blood count and the red blood count, both off, but closer to being within the normal range than last time. It is a process and I now realize that I need to remember I am vulnerable to infection and need to take better care, be more aware as I carry forth each day. I have a mess of a garage floor to handle and a host of items to go through in my basement. And then there's...and ...and...yeah, it is starting to feel overwhelming the number of projects and repairs on my plate...waiting to happen.

I'm glad I digested where I am at...so that I stay true to my own self-respect and take good care of myself. Today, after reading my labs and also reading about my blood type and foods best suited to me, I made a point of hunkering down. I feel it necessary to eliminate wheat at this point and perhaps it will become a new norm. I read that I am especially vulnerable to inflammation when eating wheat and it rings as truth. Dang. On the other hand, eating 12 ounces of spinach today no doubt was good for my body. I need to hydrate up and keep the veggies going in and little sweetness, be it melon or carrots. It's time to feel my dieting is back on track, at least I hope that is true. As I write this and recall my chemo nurse's voice, I feel less sure. I think she told me to wait a couple of months to begin to lose weight, but I feel ready. The weather is hot and sticky when it is not raining. I have felt inflammation for a while. Today, after not eating anything but a small piece of org. cantaloupe and then org. spinach fried in a small amount of org. coconut oil and org. onion with a small amount of grated cheese, I feel less inflamed. If this continues, it will be easy enough to make a shift to eating right for my body because I do recall how good I felt when I altered my diet strictly in November after discovering I had cancer. I deviated...and it is amazing how carb's create a desire...a craving for more.

A friend mentioned my lack of writing here, thus I wanted to write a post that describes recent changes. I will update and speak more about diet. I do strongly believe it is vital I eat healthily, vital I shed some excess weight, vital I exercise, vital I have loving, healthy relationships, vital I maintain peace of mind and sometimes it takes great reflection to do so.

I go to bed now, nearing 1 am, ready to rest well and to awaken with peace of mind and the determination to tackle an ever-growing list. Tomorrow, I shall go to the Vitamin C infusion that was scheduled because the doctor wanted me to have them through July, but I intend to be cancel the others. So...I had better be prepared to not forget to take the supplements I need, to ingest plenty of fresh organic produce, and to drink plenty of water, herbal teas, and lemon water.

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