Friday night is ending...

Today has had some ups and downs. I wore the hand-knitted cap made of soft turquoise wool to bed last night. It remained on until I took a bath this afternoon. It is a sensation difficult to explain to be afraid to run my fingers through my hair knowing it will shed like my dog. It truly jolts me when it happens and I am wondering if I should just go get my head shaven, but that thought really doesn't sit well with me just yet. I say that believing there will come a time, and likely soon. After the shower I put a silk scarf on and tied it a couple of different ways til I was satisfied and now I have on a different hand-crocheted cap. 

I continue to have a decent amount of energy and to accomplish more and more sorting and purging in the house. I am creating order where I can. I am trying to be secure as I face my second round of chemo on Tuesday. I expect it to go well and to keep nausea at bay using the medications prescribed and what else I know to help. But this time, Hannah is not here. Her assistance when I needed to lay down and was thirsty (it is very important to drink a lot of water after chemo especially) or hungry was invaluable. I need to rest after chemo. I have been nervous about the aspect of being alone, but I have faith that it is going to work out. Maybe someone will be able to drop in and help me out. 

It is very difficult for me to ask for help. And yet my situation is forcing me to. Yet another challenge of the chapter of life with cancer.

Tonight as I go to bed, my left thumb is throbbing because I sliced a very small piece of it off with a very sharp knife earlier in the eve. After hours of various wraps, with help a bandage was put in place that held. It is further wrapped in gauze for the night. If it is open tomorrow, I may need to go get assistance. I was saying out loud, "really? I did not think I needed an additional health issue to provide further discomfort or challenge!" But, the cut and pain remain.

Today was a better attitude day, I took it relatively easy, had a great evening (but for my sliced thumb) complete with a great meal cooked for me! Today after a conversation with my dear cousin Dawn, this blog was made public and perhaps friends and family will follow my blerbs about my life during this amazingly different chapter. Tomorrow is on the horizon. I sign off tired and heading for bed.